ayakoya's Xanga

kan aku dah cakap

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 16:08:04 GMT

aku dengan rasminya berpindah.

jangan risau xanga. aku akan selalu jenguk kau. tapi aku takkan update lah.

bai.

aku tahu ini bukan aku

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 15:47:45 GMT

selalunya aku memang akan menulis bila hati aku tak tenang. bila aku rasa satu macam je. entah kenapa. sebab aku ni bukannya orang yang pandai meluahkan sesuatu melalui penulisan. jadi bila aku mula menulis selalunya akan mula jadi emo tak tentu pasal. sebab tu blog aku ni selang lima belas tahun baru ada entry. aku tak pandai seh. serius.

apa yang membuatkan aku nak menulis hari ni? aku tengah rindukan orang yang sudah berada di alam lain. aku teringat jadi aku rindulah. kadang-kadang boleh jadi sesak nafas pulak bila teringat dekat orang nih. yela teringat la nak nak tu puasa nak dekat. boleh tak kalau aku nak skip bulan puasa dan raya terus. eh. macam berdosa la pulak aku cakap macam ni. bukan bukan aku suka puasa. puasa best. ok aku tukar. boleh tak kalau aku nak skip bulan september. terus masuk bulan oktober la senang cite. ala mana boleh. birthday aku bulan september. aku nak dapat hadiah. *hint hint* aku nak cari la remote macam dalam cerita switch tu. aku tengok rupa die macam remote astro je. jap lagi aku nak gi try tekan menu. mana lah tahu tetiba keluar menu life aku ke. ok jap lagi aku try!

ha, tadi aku terfikir, lepas aku habis chambering nanti aku nak buat apa. semangat untuk praktis memang ada. tapi semangat tu sekarang jadi macam sembelit kau tahu tak. macam nak keluar tak nak keluar duk melekat je kat situ. ha macam tu lah. jangan salah faham. aku suka dengan kerja aku. aku dapat banyak ilmu dari situ. cuma bila orang tanya aku macam mana dengan perancangan masa depan. boleh tak kalau aku nak jawap masa depan? apa tu? haha. ini jawapan budak tak sekolah beb. pendek akal namanya tu. ok la. aku acah aje. aku ada perancangan. bodoh la aku kalau takde. perancangan A, B atau C. tengok la aku nak ikut yang mana. kau tak payah tahu. kau tengok je masa tu aku dah selamat membuat pilihan. jangan risau lah. pilihan aku mesti best punya lah. aiceh. macam nak buat pilihan menantu untuk bapak ngan mak aku pulak.

ok. apa lagi aku nak tulis ni... ha, tengok. ni yang aku malas nak menulis nih. terus tak datang idea yang meleleh tadi. ni yang aku menyampah ni. buat saman, segala macam afidavit sokongan lah, saman dalam kamar lah boleh pulak. pasal diri sendiri pun tak boleh nak cerita. buduh. takpelah. biarkan lah ku pendam sebuah duka ini. aicewah. tengoklah bila bila aku rajin aku update la lagi. mungkin 15 tahun lagi la kot. bai.

nb: aku rasa macam nak beralih ke blogspot. aku letih la main ngan xanga ni. tapi aku nak import semua post2 aku yang lama yang tak berapa nak banyak tu. tapi macam malas la plak nak kena import import ni. ah! aku semua pon malas. ok lah. kali ni bai betul.

bai.

sabar sabar

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 14:45:32 GMT

soon ok..

i tengah kumpul duit nak jumpa uuuu..

long sigh

self-explanatory

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 16:40:20 GMT

salam n hi. how r u X. its been a looong time since my last visit here.

well, m busy with working life and seriously i have no time at all to update.

well maybe i lie.

actually i dont know what to share. there's plenty on my mind but it is just too personal you know what i mean.

you better know. ceh. *yes, merapu*

working life is so, so so .. ish how to put this into word eh. well it is difficult la. you know. it can be fun and it can sooo tiring and stressful and and annoyed. yes annoyed sometimes not everyday. if everyday i can mati katak ok. but, what ever it is im half way through already and i WILL finish it. yeah thats the spirit. go girl to me!

OH, and yeah its been 9 months already. and i miss both of them more and more each day.

that day ive found out about this one blog that wrote everything about him. the way they put it is just soo amazing, touching and made you fall into a deep thinking. well i did. so here i want to share it as well. care to read it only if you want to. :) http://perenggandannokhtah.blogspot.com/

and on last 24th May is my late baby sister's birthday. it was a hard day for me and i know for my family too. i did not call mummy. because i know if i did that she will definitely cry. and i dont want to make her cry anymore. i try my best not to do or said something that will remind her of adik. she is too lovely to be forgotten. adik, aya miss you so much and i love you so much.

...

ohh, suddenly i cant think of anything right now.

well, guess thats about it and till then.

bye.

hidup ini indah

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 04:32:23 GMT

**sakit kepala

**sakit bahu

**sakit kerongkong

**sakit hidung

Indah kan?

Alhamdulillah.

sikap bertanggungjawab dlm diri

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:27:20 GMT

oyeah. pertama-tamanya aku sendiri agak keliru dengan tajuk diatas. sepatutnya sikap ke sifat eh? lol. aku rasa masa spm dulu aku tak patut dpt a1 untuk bm. (cewah sebenarnya nak beritahu semua orang aku dapat a1) big lol.

anyways, aku memang sangat bertanggungjawab. tak caya aku cakap. betul. tak caya jugak. meh meh sini nak habaq mai.

**** Mahkamah Majikseteret ****

Dengan izin Tuan saya farah marzuki PDK untuk tetuan bla bla bla ingin membuka pekung di dada sendiri.

Granted.

Much obliged Tuan. (apa jadah campur melayu dengan inggelish ni.)

Dengan izin Mahkamah yang mulia ini, saya ingin merujuk kepada lampiran pertama berkenaan dengan gaji Tuan.

Ya Tuan. Perihal gaji Tuan. Gaji yang pertama Tuan.

Menurut siasatan yang telah dijalankan Tuan, gaji pertama pihak defendan telah habis diguna pakai untuk keperluan peribadi nya sendiri Tuan.

Laporan siasatan juga menunjukkan bahawa gaji tersebut habis digunakan dalam masa sehari sahaja Tuan.

Oleh itu Tuan, pihak kami dapat simpulkan disini bahawa perbuatan pihak defendan menunjukkan sikap bertanggungjawab yang terdapat dalam dirinya Tuan.

Nampak tak hubung kaitnya di situ Tuan?

Tuan nampak dah. Bagus.

Sungguh bertanggungjawab kan dia. Budi bahasa budaya kita.

HABIS SIAPA NAK BAYAR DUIT MINYAK DAN DUIT TOL RM8SEHARI X 30 HARI - 4HARI. KIRA SENDIRI BERAPA HARI. DUIT MAKAN LAGI. DAH LA AKU NI GELOJOH SUKA MAKAN BANYAK DAN MAHAL MAHAL. HUEHUEHUE. MASA BELANJA TIDAK BERPIJAK DI BUMI YANG NYATA. BILA KEKERINGAN BEGINI BARU KU TAHU LANGIT TINGGI ATAU RENDAH. SIAPA NAK BAYAR ITU SEMUA. SIAPA??

BAPAK AKU JUGAK.

'terima kasih' la kepada cik puan farah marzuki di atas kerjasama yang diberikan.

i rest my case.

tengs. im sorry. hehe

siri f.r.i.e.n.d.s dah tak mampu menyelamatkan aku.

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:12:25 GMT

bosan nye...

bosan. bosan. bosan.

TAHU!

cis.macam mana diorang tahu ni. lol

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 02:54:57 GMT

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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Anyways, betul ke semua ni?

Heh. Funny. kawan kawan ku why dont you try it. * http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Friday, March 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 14:35:53 GMT

i close my eyes when i get too sad.

i think thoughts that i know are bad.

close my eyes and i count to ten.

hope it's over when i open them.

close my eyes when i go to bed.

and i dream of angels that make me smile.

i feel better when i hear them say.

everything will be wonderful someday.

i dont want to start over again.

i just want my life to be the same.

just like it used to be.

please dont tell me everything is wonderful now.

*everclear*

Friday, March 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 05:54:54 GMT

We are meant to lose someone we love. Then we know how important he is to us.

Kan? Hmm